I am sure some of you have noticed that I have not been blogging as much. This is because I am now a working Mom. After almost 3 years having the privilege of staying home with my son I am back in the work force. The first week was really tough, not just for my son but for me too. We both cried a lot. My heart was so broken the first day seeing my son screaming with tears rolling down his face yelling "No Mama No!" I tear up just thinking about it. I had to fight back tears as I went to work trying not to let my emotions get the best of me. I remind myself I was lucky to be home with him the first 3 years and to cherish every little moment there is when I am home.
I am not sure if I took it for granted being with him all day everyday but being away from him for 8 hours a day I count every minute until I can be back playing toys, making stuffed animals dance, painting pictures and reading him books. I swear he might have gotten taller in the few weeks I have been working. I have moments of panic where I think I am going to miss something or he will grow up in the blink of an eye and I will miss it. But I know in my heart the decision to work will enable me to make a better future for him.
In the last few weeks it has gone from tearful departures to us both being ok with a temporary separation. Yesterday when my son waved, smiled and told me "Bye Bye Mama". I blew him a kiss and knew that the day was going to be a much better one.